"Go to the great city of Nineveh and proclaim to it the message I give to you. Jonah obeyed the word of the Lord and went to Nineveh. Now Nineveh was a very large city; it took three days to go through it." Jonah 3:2-3
I have probably said it more than 1000 times in the last year, both out loud and silently. It comes out in many different ways, but the meaning behind it is always the same; This Is Too Big.
It is one thing to hear the voice of God, it is quite another to obey it. Jonah heard God's voice and he completely disobeyed and went the other way. This got him in a huge bit of trouble with the people doing life with him, and ultimately, he ended up in the belly of a whale crying out to God to deliver him. What did God do? He heard Jonah's cry, rescued him from the belly of the whale and sent him back on that same assignment to Nineveh. Nineveh, a city so big it took three days to go through. Ever been in an assignment from God that felt like it was too big?
When I look around at where God has placed me, I often feel like it's too big. I have a go to statement for days when I feel particularly too small for the assignment, "This is a big girl's job...I'm not a big girl." It is always on those days when I have to step out of my comfort zone and do something required of the task, something that is going to make me stretch a little farther than I feel is comfortable. I spend way too long in my little pity-party, saying things like, "God, this is not what I thought it was going to look like" or "God, can you just help me out here and make this path straight so I don't have to do so much moving?" and even, "God, this is not fair, this is not what I signed up for"....Yep, I say that sometimes.
Over the last several weeks, God has been revealing His reply to those statements. Very clearly, in many different venues, God has spoken "You were born for this" to my spirit. And with those words, I have been reminded that I did not "sign up" for anything, I was CREATED by DESIGN to do exactly what it is He has me doing in this moment. It may not be comfortable, but it probably is not comfortable for the first sprout of a seed to pop it's head out of the soil. It may make me hurt just a little bit, but it does hurt when we're stretching to the place we are growing into. It may make me cry out for help, but that is exactly what He is there for, to direct my sight back to His purpose for all of it. Right in the middle of me expressing "THIS IS TOO BIG!!!" He answers, "YOU'RE RIGHT!!! IT'S TOO BIG FOR YOU, THAT IS WHY YOU MUST DEPEND ON ME!"
I have not yet arrived at the place where I can say, "I've got this", and I am beginning to think that is exactly where God wants me. Too many times I have grown so comfortable that I have gone on auto-pilot, allowing myself to navigate; I am convinced God does not ever want me to get to that place again in the calling He has on my life.
What are you facing that shouts "THIS IS TOO BIG"? Perhaps it's time to hand the wheel back over to the one who created you...for such a time as this......